“Human
feelings and emotions, part III and IV –
pride
& pain"
(by
Kai Mathias Stalhammar)
Pride.
Pride, which is considered to be the one of the Cardinal Sins ever by christianity.
But what is pride and what can it offer? First of all, it’s the self-reliance.
The weak becomes the strongest one, the enslaved turns into the enslaver,
non-entity becomes a personality. Letting it inside yourself, you radically
change the very essense of yours.
Pride gives
you confidence, the strength to look in the eyes of your Enemy and stand
his glare. Defining it as ‘sin’, Church pursued only one object – to conquer
the Power and Authority and strengthen it. To rule over the human masses,
to be the one who pulls the strings, the master of the puppets.
But exactly
this feeling lets you to feel yourself a Man, a ‘valuable’ and, what’s
most important, Free Man, not someone’s slave. Acquiring the Pride, you
become the one whom you always had to be – the Personality. Thanks to this
feeling, you stand out of the crowd, i.e. exactly the kind of thing mostly
unwanted by the Church.
* * *
Pain…
Perhaps, some of you heard about it only by hearsay, while others saw
the very depths of pain…; but most of us met it face to face, some – quite
often, others – more rarely… There’re those who can’t stand the external
pressure and give up the final hopes, leaving the mortal world… Other individuals
oppose it as long and as much as they can, and sometimes they come out
as the winners of this battle… Pain (especially, the mental one) may spawn
two kinds of reaction: rage and fury, and the sense of doom slowly turning
into pure depression…
We should
struggle against all the resistances we meet, all the problems that surround
us – both, mentally and physically… Resistances exist for overcoming them,
and that’s a perfect test of our Strength and Will, inner and external
ones. The one who considers himself to be a Personality should follow on
fighting till the end, the triumphant end! You just have to believe in
your forces, and, perhaps, it’s the main thing we have to believe in. Every
man has a chance to fall into the abyss of depression, abyss, whose bottom
hides the sharpest stones stained with blood of the Fools… But depression
is one more thing you should struggle with, since if you won’t, you can
easily become the victim of Weakness… You see, it’s so easy to give up
fighting, but it’s not the kind of way for true Personalities! It’s the
way of the christians!
Remember
– you live while you fight. And those who give up are the living dead.
Nothing more, nothing less.